And still on the same subject
9:56 a.m. - 2005-01-18
I broke down last night. All day, I tried to remain calm. I did some studying for the GRE, talked to Billy for a little while, did a little more research on my most recent concern, and watched some TV. When I went to my room to call Dan the Man, he didn�t answer, it was busy. I called his cell and no answer. He finally called me back and I had already broken down. I was writing in my paper journal about all my worries. By the time he called, I was already crying. I asked him if I could call him back and he did exactly what I had needed him to do. He said, �Babe, don�t. Don�t make me go. I want to be here for you.�
Although that made me feel better, it also reminded me that he wasn�t here with me. So then I cried some more. Then I thought about other things that were making me sad and that made me cry even more. Needless to say, I look like a troll today with puffy eyes and all. Later, Dan the Man said, �I�m sorry I didn�t go when you wanted me to, but I�I just love you.�
I think the reason I freak out and think I�m pregnant when I don�t get my period when expected is because I know what a detrimental effect it would have on my life. I mean, yeah, I guess if I had to I could handle it, especially now that I�m on the verge of graduating, but still you know. It�s sort of hard. Plus, my graduate school plans would be shot. As it is, I don�t know if I�m going to get all the things done in time. This graduation thing and applying to grad schools is a real pain in the ass. But anyway.
I called the school clinic to make an appointment to see the gynecologist but there was no answer. Dan the Man made me promise I�d make an appointment today or else he was going to �call someone.� I still don�t want anyone finding out about this. If I do tell anyone, it may be Letty from Latina�s on the Rise because she�s been through this. Anyway, I should get back to work because I have class in a about half an hour.
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